Lunch Ritual

I like to go window shopping on my lunch break. Not only does it remind me how atrociously chubby I am, it also gives me something to aim for. I want to be a specific size by my birthday (November). So, I'm not buying anything new until I can fit into my old jeans. Once I can rock those again without muffin-topping out of them, I'll buy some new clothes. And some new boots. What's the point of getting hot, thin legs if I can't show them off in boots and tights?

Went to Hale & Hearty for a small Chicken Vegetable Soup - 80 calories. Water. I don't feel hungry, kinda makes me sad actually. I feel like I caved instead of sticking to water only. But I'm feeling sick, so I figured I needed to eat something. Just a little bit. Going to the gym tonight anyway. Augh! I still feel wretched for eating.

-_-

no pain, no loss.